today is just not my day

3 am, tuesday night, here i am sitting in my bed watching the same sportscenter rerun that has been on since the Kentucky/mississippi basketball game was over at like 11pm. I have french class tomorrow at 11, and i dont know if im going to make it there. It's snowing outside like it has been for the past 2 weeks. Dont get me wrong, i love the snow its just a pain in the butt to get to class while walking through a blizzard. On a related, but completely different topic, "snookie" from the Jersey Shore TV show on MTV is going to be at the bar tomorrow night and im not sure if i want to go. First off the bar really hurts my bank account which is dwindling already cause im a fatass and eat all the time haha. Speaking of that, i really want to get in shape but at the same time i have 0 motivation to do so. Maybe one day it will click and ill just do it. Oh well untill that time comes...i dont know. My team does not have a volleyball match this weekend which is kind of a relief but at the same time, i sorta wish we did cause its really the only thing that makes me really happy. Today was a very productive day but at the same time i did absolutely nothing. I took a nap at like 830, which is a horrible time for a nap. Probably the reason im still up right now. I went to the nest today. Smoked with my friends, got high, ordered to much food. My money management is horrible. I really want people to read this and give me feedback and really just have a conversation. I feel like my life is so boring, or maybe i just am. Oh and im afraid of telling my friends about this blog because i feel that i will either get judged, or they will call me gay. Not that i get offended by name calling im 22 years old, its the feeling that im actually sitting here trying to put my thoughts down and I fear the only response i will get is negative. I dont know, i get paranoid alot. I fear i may be depressed, but at the same time life is really that bad, Cant win em all. Until next time...Au revoir